I honestly don't know how I'm going to handle this. Oh, not that we're having another boy, just the fact that I never thought that I would be the Mother of FOUR children. Today I'm officially halfway through my pregnancy and I feel terribly close to curling up in my bed, putting the covers over my head and bawling my eyes out. I won't of course, but I might wait until later when the kids are all alseep and Cory is at least home to give me a hug and tell me that everything will be fine.